When a 46-year-old hypervigilant anthropologist finds out she has a genetic mutation that means she is at risk of developing the same cancer that killed her father at 48, she must put her grief and anxiety over his death and her emotionally precarious childhood to rest or risk losing her sanity, her husband, and her carefully-ordered life.

It's an experimental memoir in glossary structure, alternating between remembered and speculated past and real present, and includes forms such as blackout/erasure, artifacts, diagrams, and hermit crabs to allow deep exploration of anxiety, death, love, and adulthood.

For those who suffer from anxiety, those who lost a parent early, those who have inherited cancer risk, and those who long to recognize and let go of what no longer serves them.